Can’t quite believe I’m resurrecting this blog!
Or that I’m just days away from defending my dissertation. I can’t say that I have a lot of faith in it at this point – partly because I finished in a rush and couldn’t even say what I wrote anymore, partly because I still – still! – don’t quite have the courage of my convictions. I’m arguing something, but I’m still not 100% sure what that is, and I’m even less sure that it has any kind of real relevance. I hear this feeling is kind of par for the course, but I’m not convinced. And then, there’s the fact that I didn’t really check my bibliography carefully before I sent it off; I think my footnotes are okay (maybe), but the bibliography could be way the hell all over the place.
At any rate, one trip to Hawaii and I’m off to defend, for better or worse.
Kids are good, although Boy is not quite on board with the separations (this upcoming trip will be the second in a month). Girl is doing better with it – partly because she understands better when I explain what I’m going to do, and partly because, right now, I’m kind of awful to be around anyway. Short-tempered, cranky, worried…at least – hopefully – it has a shelf life.
At any rate, still here, still anxious, but still chugging along.
